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and I smoked with him and we discussed religion. We talked about our families and  how uncongenial we were with them.  We are both Agnostic - most of the time I think I am - Sometimes I believe only in the visible - but the mind is invisible and it is powerful.  I'll have to study it all out.  I like to talk to mother about religion because she is so orthodox. I disagree and try to show her what I think. I like to express my ideas I know it is because I am young - and Dr Hastings & Jones said I had a good mind - and was so well read and had good taste in literature - and I'm just young and cocky. I don't like church - I would if there were a real exclusive one where every one had lots of money - but I hate being democratic - I'm going

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to Sunday School in the morning. I like the teacher but he says such dumb things some times. A girl we knew tried to committ suicide this morning. Ruth & Mother & I talked about it a long time - Ruth always tries to take the same views as I do when I disagree with Mother. I don't like the way she argues with Mother - She acts like Mother doesn't know a thing she's talking about and she (Ruth) laughs when Mother makes a very orthodox statement - she thinks I'll laugh - but I always try to find fault with her statement & take Mother's side. I think anyone has to have lots of courage to take his life - I haven't enough - I'm afraid of death I believe - Is it because I'm not orthodox? I like material things too well I guess. I read Mother Chopenhaur on Suicide. It sounds so good - and I read with a great gusto - my egotism is so deeply rooted -

I'm going to Colorado June 27 to a Zeta convention - then I want to stay and work - I have so many bills that I will just have to, to pay them.  I'm reading [[underlined]] A Young Girls Diary [[/underlined]].

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Schopenhauer: she's nearly there