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[[strikethrough]] MONDAY, AUGUST 3, 1936 [[/strikethrough]]
216th Day    150 Days to come

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from making much ado about nothing in writing that essay - much as I long to - but I feel sure that these abnormalities are what make art & inspiration possible - [[strikethrough]] except that [[/strikethrough]] There is talent - so what form could that take if there were no imagination or thwarted longings that force people to create their own worlds which bespeak their particular personalities & feelings [[strikethrough]] better [[/strikethrough]] more vividly than any pure talent or ability could? I hate to think how dull the world would be if everyone was emotionally normal!

I have a weird love of analyzing things scientifically & carelessly - but no [[strikethrough]] literary [[/strikethrough]] intellectual critical ability or knowledge of any kind to back me up. I wish I had a better vocabulary [[strikethrough]] to get [[/strikethrough]] with which to get these things over, but when I never read why should I? And why should I feel this sin is alleviated [[strikethrough]] by the [[/strikethrough]] in my conscience (which is so gigantic that only a sinner


[[strikethrough]] TUESDAY, AUGUST 4, 1936 [[/strikethrough]]
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could [[strikethrough]] have see [[/strikethrough]] concoct such a monstrosity) by the very fact that I confess it? It only allows me to feel free to sin again - which gives me an understanding of Catholic confessions. Today on the street I saw Frank Buck, & as I smiled he smiled nicely but questioningly, & when I looked back he was smiling broadly with real recognition. That is important as I have only seen him a few times, & he may come in handy taking me on expeditions some day! I went down to the Warnekes who were lovely as usual to me. He told [[strikethrough]] me I was [[/strikethrough]] offered in a nutshell his opinion of my present work. He said to think hard about what big thing I wanted to do to exhibit next fall. He said I was just in between [[strikethrough]] being able to finish [[/strikethrough]] the last stages in finishing what I want to do with ease. He said I modelled much easier now, & that my forms were getting bigger & bigger, & that I would be surprised how [[strikethrough]] very [[/strikethrough]] much better my carving would be now.

He said the last two figures I have