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Dr. Myerson, was actually the very one she had wanted to send Doris to. She gave me her telephone saying, "Call him up". So I did, and asked him if he remembered me, and he did, and I told him my problems and altho he had no office time, he told me to bring Doris out to his home in Brookline the very next day. So the next forenoon I had my short interview with the Dean. She told me Doris had a very mature mind in many ways, and was one who learnt easily and could do good work and was genuinely interested in her work, and she was so very honest and truthful, so many girls were "so dishonest". She said she didn't think Doris would make a good teacher. I told her I felt as a scientific research worker she would be very well adapted, and yet we couldn't say a word to influence her. She agreed about both matters, and said, "I think we can manage to change her around". She said she had dealt with a great many such upset, and they weren't uncommon in girls, but when she last interviewed Doris and they had talked on things, Doris had smiled and altho she had said bothering, Dean K.M. had the distinct feeling Doris hadn't responded to her reasoning and was closing up on her advice, then she felt the matter was critical and beyond them and they wanted a real psychiatrist's opinion. Then as I was about to leave she said, too, that I had made on her a quite different impression from what she had formed - another apology. The Lord only knows what a monster that youngone had made of me! I sensed it very strongly in Dolores since Christmas, too. But it is all a part of a sick mental condition. She can't see that it is in herself partly. I know there is considerable blame on my part, but never consciously. We have been too eager to help, too protective, too trying to make her conform by criticism and not by constructive encouragement, too impatient, irritated, and hurt her by our poking at her continually. With her natural inhibitions - and she is 10x worse than you or I ever - we couldn't see the raw suffering we inflicted on her