Viewing page 23 of 37

This transcription has been completed. Contact us with corrections.

Page 555555

It intimates that one or two of you represents the rest of the staff, that the group needs you as representative of "staff"-as-an-entity to function, and yet we have never looked at that to see if it is true.

The Sage=or and the Sage-ee is directly connected to the previous comments, and the role of the facilitator. Nobody can "teach" community meeting and no one can teach anyone else anything about community anymore than a therapist can teach someone to be happy. Community is an experience that grows out of the way we relate to each other and if you don't experience, nobody can tell you how.

Which brings me, irrationally, to small groups. I find it impossible to make human connection in a large group. I find the things that are said fall into [[strikethrough]] so [[/strikethrough]] open space without making any kind of connection with anyone or thing. It has always seemed most efficient emotionally and productively to dialogue in small groups, connect with people [[strikethrough]] previously unknown [[/strikethrough]] and then come back to share that experience. It means more people can talk more, each person gets a finer quality of attention. it has generally been the choice of the group to remain together in a large group. I have come to the place where I find it unacceptable - it reflects majority rule. If one third of us want to spend some time in small groups, it only seems fair that one-third of the time be spent that way. Otherwise the majority again determines the experience of the minority. 

Let me see, next on my agenda is vulnerability. I wonder who will and will not fill this out - for I find that the things I have said make me feel very vulnerable-exposing my bitchiness, sometimes littleness and sometimes [[sometimes]] depth of perception. I want the same kind of commitment from all of you-staff included. 

My suggestion is that community meeting again return to the development of community, how to come together, ahow to deal with differences and to use the time to find out more about each other, to develop fantasy's for the future, develop projects look at other communities, I don't know, the possibilities seem endless. 

THURSDAY NIGHT:

Does not work for me either, and I have generally chosen not to participate, I am too exhausted and I don't get enough back. Or perhaps it is a case of getting too much back and wanting it to be another place of sharing, but this time work. I would like to see Thursday night be a place where we discuss concepts, what is art, how to [[strikethrough]] we [[/strikethrough]] relate to it, and develope [[develop]] collaborative pieces work on them together, plan the opening, share our work, and again connect in smaller groups about our aspiratons, our work and art.