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...Well, but I'm saying, I'm trying to make a statement. I felt particularly, when I say it was relative to it, I've come close to it. I couldn't do it. I don't know really why. Maybe it's because I'm not a particularly violent person myself. I don't feel that something has to happen immediately and very directly. And I can't sustain it...I can't sustain violence within me. So maybe if I grabbed a brush immediately after some incident or something, I could do something that would be passable, but it is not for me...when I say I can't, I can do anything really if I had to do it...but whatever piece I attempt, I always try to give it my maximum of what I am inside, a feeling at the moment about the thing. And I want it to be the most moving kind of work that will come out. It doesn't always work out this way. Sometimes I hit and I miss. There are many failures before some success comes along, and sometimes the failures are exhibited along with the successes. But I don't think that I can pull out the passion that's within me on that level. I am a sensuous man. I am a passionate man. I'm a man who loves. I love women passionately. I love life passionately. I love good liquor. I love companionship. I take joy in all this revelry of life. I don't understand people who don't. Now I can paint about this thing, and I feel. I say I love my wife passionately. No other woman possible could exist for me this moment beyond my wife. We fight, but that fighting is a part of love too. You see, now hate
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