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unfortunate delivery we came home and they returned at the same time. I have the record of last year to repeat. I have suffered agonies of anxiety on account of my money affairs and since Mr. Moore has not been able to pay me have been almost in despair. I am utterly helpless and suffer intensely whenever I allow myself to reflect upon my situation. I talked with Johnson about it but what can he do but sympathize. I cannot help a feeling of injustice and wonder why I must continually drag this chain for no fault of my own that I am aware of

Monday May 12. Called on Avery. He had previously told me that Mr. Lucius Tuckerman had admired my Kaatskill woods and would advise a friend of his who wanted an American landscape to buy it. As nothing further has been heard from him I asked Avery if he thought it would not be proper for me to write a note to Mr. T. and tell him I would like to sell it and would dispose of it at a reasonable price. He advised me to do so and accordingly I wrote to that effect, a thing I dislike to do but which I feel obliged to do under the circumstances. It is significant in reading over my journal how much I am occupied with my daily affairs and anxieties about money. Will it eventually swallow all my artistic enthusiasm? I went again to find the Oceanic and on the pier met a passenger who kindly offered to give the package to Mrs. Blackburn. 

Tuesday 13. Dr Pelton who has been ill called and also Mr. Wooley who was a school companion of mine 30 years ago, a middle aged man, whose hair was sprinkled with grey and bearing marks of an active business life that had not left much time for cultivation. The last time I saw him he was an active boy of sixteen or thereabouts. A Mr. Max Weyl came from Washington with a letter from Mr. Kauffman. He