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seemed to envelope me more closely and here I could not help constantly thinking of her last days and I came away weighed down with all the sad memories of our last visit together there. It is just one half year ago today since she died and I am down in the lowest depths of sorrow today. O the loneliness and sadness of life without her Will I ever grow accustomed to it. I came home by the Norwich route arriving here early  this morning. Lucy has been and gone to Wilmington and did not get the letter I wrote her which I found here on my return. Breakfasted at Marys, and saw Tula who is still here. Her father has been here and left for home this morning. It is dull and rainy and I am as sad as I can well be, but I hope to rise out of it for I am always depressed on my return after a prolonged absence. Spent the rest of the day in my room. Dark and gloomy out of doors. Painted a little on a small head of Gertrude. To the Council meeting in the evening and to the Century afterward with Whittredge. My thought have been with dear Gertrude all day and when I came to my room at midnight I was crushed under a sense of my loneliness and my yearning for her. Wrote to my father and sent $250 to pay on our note due 18"

Tuesday 15. Apl. 1879. Another dark gloomy day. Went to the Academy to look over the pictures of candidates for Academicians and associates. Saw Miss Durfee. Told me that my picture was much liked and that several had inquired the price but all thought it more than they could pay. I told her to offer it for $1500. Dined with the G. B. Club at Martinellis and had a pleasant time. Eastman, Gifford and I went from there to the Club and when they left I came sadly to my room. Have been very depressed and think constantly of dear Gertrude. 

Wednesday 16. A bright day at last. Mary and I talked and wept together over dear Gertrudes memory alone at breakfast. She is constantly in my thought. Mary, Tula, Julia and Marion were going to Alpine to spend the day and wanted me to go but I could not and thought they would be happier without me. A letter from Sara full of tender sadness at the coming of the Spring with all its memories of Gertrude. A note from St. Nicholas enclosing five dollars for Mrs. Sawyers little poem the "Cross and the Crown" Wrote to Mrs. Sawyer and sent it to her. Painted all day on a little picture intended for Mrs. Wheeler to pay for the