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Friday Sept. 12 1884. Went to N.Y. this morning by N.S. road. A cool and delightful day after the intense heat. Saw Mr. Mills about the studio alterations and he thought I need not be troubled at least before the middle of Oct. And perhaps later so I decided not to do any thing but to come home. Had lunch down town and went up to Marys. Found Calvert was coming up by the Powell so we came together and are going out to the mountains tomorrow to Wilbers in Mink Hollow. The weather is fair and cool.

Saturday Sept. 27" 1884
Calvert and I this evening returned from Mr. Rufus R. Wilbers in Mink Hollow where we went on the 13" having been gone two weeks. I spent all the time sketching and made a dozen sketches and three drawings. We left just as it was growing most interesting, the Autumn color having just begun. This brook is very rich in Autumn and if Calvert could have staid and I had not felt I was needed at home I would have been glad to stay ten days or a fortnight longer. It seems strange to say so, but there is something depressing in coming home. It is the taking up again our responsibilities after a season of entire freedom from them. There I had nothing to think of but my work while here a thousand cares arise at once to meet me. Still it is more than balanced by the comforts and the satisfaction of being at home and with ones own. I found a telegram from Jim Warren asking me to come down to Monmouth Beach to spend Sunday with him. Marion is here but Laura left for the Cove this afternoon her father having sent for her to come there. He had hardly got back to Hillsboro and now he is back again. He is the most restless mortal I ever knew. I do not believe he knows from day to day what he intends to do.

Sunday 28"
It has been a very warm day almost sultry. I have written to Jus. Warren, to Downing, to Perry and acknowledged the receipt of a card of admission to the Louisville Exposition. I have put away my things after unpacking my trunk and feel as though I should do but little more sketching this fall because there is so much about home to demand my attention. I have thought a great deal about dear Gertrude today and missed her as I can never express. There come times when her absence to me seems almost insupportable. I can see her in all her pretty and attractive ways so plainly and long to express my love for her and my happiness that our lives were thrown together. Sara and I sat in my room where I was showing her my sketches and talked of Gussie. She said while she was sick here she turned the little bed she was lying on so that she could see the sunset and she said with the greatest feeling "oh how beautiful" Poor child! She is at rest from a life long suffering with which her delicate and sensitive nature could not struggle. She had given up and I think death came to her as a happy release. I was shocked to hear of the suicide of Isaac Newton an account of which I cut from the Tribune.

Monday 29."
I went to bed with a headache last night and had a troubled sleep. Today I have been as in a troubled dream, depressed and half alarmed and discouraged. I have no doubt much of it is due to physical disorder. I wrote to Booth and read a review of Bayard Taylors life & letters in Sundays Tribune. Calvert and I took Park

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