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informally & just because we happened to ride at the same time. We did this for a month or more, it was the middle of winter when after a certain ball which I had been at very late the night before, I went to ride as usual at 9.30 I had hated the ball though partners were plentiful, I had come home with a weight at my heart & the same time a joy in my soul which had kept me awake the remainder of the night. [[strikethrough]] Of course I [[/strikethrough]] Jim had not

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yet arrived when I got to the Club. I fooled about a little and finally gave him up, started by myself. At the entrance to the Park he overtook me. He was very pale and looked ill. It made me feel like crying, and yet I was determined not to show my tenderness just because he was blue. I knew every change of his face, every expression & what it meant, and I had given up by this time trying to deny to myself that I loved him with all my soul and heart and that in all the world there was [[underlined]] nothing [[/underlined]] I would not do

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