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Or [[OR?]] - 4 - 9818
I want to talk about 
my self destruction 
my disgust & stupidity - 
(waiting - [[strikethrough]] locked [[/strikethrough]] 
paralises) 
waiting & trapped by Ben's ferocity
[[Ben/Zen]] & the mostly of [[arching?]]
[[strikethrough]] association [[/strikethrough]]
began to breath more 
easily & dove in - 
point I made about 
painting - let it come 
to me - (sick headache



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man in front of me in 
train - 
thrust of hand made 
me tremble - all men 
frighten me? what 
about all that don't? - 
back aches -

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