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Fri. Aug 31
[[strikethrough]] Wednesday, July 18, 1928 [[strikethrough]]

This business of being in love, of being loved--of loving a person like Bob! It all seems overwhelming and real. The love has grown so much that it now has become an integral part of life and has given a meaning to life--reason to rhyme as well as rhyme to reason. We have together shared our different moods and little problems. The desire to get married - in five years - has gone deep, and has made itself into a strong part of the foundations on which we are each building our lives. I can't explain my feelings for Bob any more now that they are even truer. It is still comfortable and secure and tender. Bob makes me forget the starkness of time and money and place - he is the "reality of romance". When I think of five years I can't quite conceive what it means -. Five years - College and seminars, new contacts for both of us, and new interests. Our love is built on an understanding of the same things, love of the same things. Will we grow apart? I feel in one way we won't - because we both want to have "our dream" come true, and so we will work hard toward it - sacrifice - dream.

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Thursday, July 19, 1928

Bob is studying architecture now - to see if he wants to go with it. It means less money in five years, but it does mean, I think, more happiness and freedom for Bob. It is for this reason that I am urging architecture. Bob is a truly fine person - his conceptions and his ideas. He is idealistic enough to make an adventure of anything he undertakes - but the effort to enjoy architecture will, I think, be so much less than the effort to enjoy business that he can devote so much more time to it - and be successful what ever that may be - I guess, achieving that which he himself wants to achieve. Five years is a long time and yet, quite honestly, were [[strikethrough]] this five years from now [[/strikethrough]] he to ask me to marry him now, I am not absolutely certain I would say "yes". I feel hopelessly young and ignorant. to tie myself down now, would be foolish and futile. It would not be good for either of us - for I am not capable of it yet. Marriage is a serious business - and to undertake something which is beyond one is quite stupid.  However, I do know it is worth waiting for and working for - and to make a dream come true, [[strikethrough]] means [[strikethrough]] a hope reality is the most vital thing for me.