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Thursday, May 29, 1941

Over the year: acquaintances, friends, companions:

The Reisbords: Sam and Jeanette
The Blakes: Dorothy and Sandy
The Wrights: Alice and Walter
The Skjonsbys: Dorothy and Verne
The Bouslogs: Harriet and Charles
The Sternes: Betty and Marshall
Nancy Jane Swan, Floyd Mattson, Lindy, Buddy, Spencer, Claire and Hank Pahl, [[strikethrough]] the [[/strikethrough]] Norval Welch and Julie and Bob Brix and Paul Hyun and Bob Speed, John Mann and John Payne and so many others.
And the Pesonens, Eleanor and Alex; Marion Anderson and the Millers, Don and Connie; and always Rose
Also Charlotte LaBoski and Elsa and Howard and Harlan Reynalds and Isami and Kon Chew and John and Till Bernstein,
And so many others:

Each living a secret existence, each spending [[strikethrough]] their [[/strikethrough]] his / days and their nights according to the dictates of his glands and his past, his beliefs and his teachers' teachings.

Each crossing the path of the others, each smiling politely and damning everyone who lives differently.

Each using the others as currency in the world's business.

Each applauding himself [[strikethrough]] when he [[/strikethrough]] when applauding others. Each saying, see I am intelligent, I understand what you say.

Each unhappy and lonely.

Each fighting unhappiness and loneliness by seeking endless reflections of himself in others somewhat like him.

Each afraid of the future; each longing for the comfort of the past.

One walks the streets of [[strikethrough]] little [[/strikethrough]] towns at night; another stays at home and listens to Beethovan; one awaits the revolution and the rivers of blood; another seeks the body of a wench in a Waikiki apartment; one quarrels with his wife and leaves the party early; one discovers old letters and blackmails a clan; one writes poems in his hours of loneliness; another paints flowers and longs for home; one conceals his racial ancestry; one plans weekend cocktail parties and plans the conversation also; and one is impatient for the new social order; one begets children and looks for a maid to do the work; one finds heaven in swing; one tries to read Marx and another finds Hart Crane great; one seeks the coastline for philosophies of change and of conduct; another resigns himself to weakness.