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middle life I have known that I had to guard my health. None of you know how much illness I have had for I never speak of it and now of you are interested. But I find that you push so much force and energy into your feelings, such unimportant ones, that unless I sence that it is truly important to you or me, I pass it over, as it exhausts me and uses up my energy for no purpose. That is why I never took up the subject of Prof. Keasby. The first time you mentioned it with so much force that  it exhausted me, and as I had not senced that it was important to you, I passed it by - Even your silences are charged with supressed energy, so that they are not easy to meet. I don't believe you have any conception how much more energy and vitality you possess than most people. 
With such energy rightly used, you could accomplish anything you want -- Have anything you desire. I do not feel that you have any conception of how big and powerful a person you are, because you make so little self conscious use of these great powers within you. -- That is why I wanted