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Monday Feb. 16" 1880. Came down today by Hudson River road. Nannie McEntee came down and we sat together. It was a warm clear day and I was very reluctant to come away from home. I wish I could feel it were nice for me to stay there and paint in my studio, but I am afraid it would not do. When I got to my studio I found my piano was gone and a letter from Mr. Chickering enclosing check for it for $175. It caused me a pang for it was associated with dear Gertrude, but I know it is best. I am glad it went when I was not here. I could never sell our piano at home for that is clearly associated with her and our early married life when she used to play and sing so much. My father drove me to the ferry today. I told him how I decided to leave home and how unhappy I am everywhere. He thinks I have dyspepsia. He said "I am happy and contented everywhere. It is no mere lip service either for I am thankful for all the blessings I enjoy and it seems useless to me to complain. This is a great encouragement to me. I found Downing ill in bed from Diphtheritic sore throat.

Tuesday 17. Booth came and stood again for Benedick, the third trial. He was greatly depressed and alarmed on account of his wifes health. I think he fears he is going to lose her. I had a letter from Janette very kind and sympathetic and urging me to try to believe as she does that I may communicate with dear Gertrude. A sweet letter from Sara full of consolation and sisterly advice and help. Went to our drawing class in the evening.

Wednesday 18. Booth did not come. I fear his wife is ill. Worked a little on my pictures but it has been a trying day to me. Hood came and asked me to see the picture he is painting of Gertrude. There is a great deal in it that is good but it lacks. Dined with the G.B. Club at the University club. An interesting discussion after dinner on service and religion.