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her that it brought the tears to ours eyes to see and to touch these fragile things once belonging to her and which still remained while she is no more. Oh how sweetly and tenderly I thought of her and how her absence intensified the sense of loneliness here. It was raining and snowing and time for me to go. Sara cried as she said "it was so forlorn every time I went away." I felt badly to leave as I always do, and my mother cried as I bade her good bye but I told her Julia would be there soon after I left. Passing one of Mrs. Hatheways houses I saw crape on the door and the undertakers wagon there. Mr. Heakin had just died and I saw by the Freeman that Mrs. Broadhead had also died. Sam Cuykendall and his wife were on the ferry boat going to New York. It rained when I arrived here but I built a fire and smoked a cigar and went to bed early, and had a most vivid dream of dear Gertrude, only momentary, but in which I saw her as plainly as though she stood before me with her sweet smile and her never failing expression of love for me. Once in a great while I see her just in this way without a suggestion of the years that have passed since she went away. How strange this is that the events of the past can sometimes repeat themselves to us in this clear and vivid manner and to me it is an infinite blessing and its influence remains with me a long time. 

Tuesday April 24th 1883. Went to the dentists this morning. A dark day with frequent showers. Came to my studio and painted on my evening picture. Hubbard and I went to Julian Weirs wedding at 5 o'clock at the church corner of 10" St. Johns little daughters Edith and Louise were there. Lily looked very pretty as she walked in dressed simply in white. The brides maids in Gainsborough hats with white plumes were a very pretty feature - still a wedding seems always to me for the eyes of only very intimate friends. I find I grow less and less to like artificial ceremony. Dined with Fred Sawyer and his wife and at half past 10 came to my studio. Hannah told me Weir had just left my room and gone to the Century so I went up there and met him and after a little we came back to my room and talked until nearly 2 o'clock on spiritual things about which Weir talks well. He is very progressive and has pretty wide interests but I think he will change his mind about some things while he will continue to grow mentally and spiritually. 

Wednesday 25'. Called at Prof. Weirs to see Johns little daughters saw only Edith Louise having gone out with her mother. Painted in the evening. In the evening attended a meeting of the Art