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Sunday June. 3" 1883. It has been a cool cloudy day and we have had a fire in the parlor all day. My father has made himself ill working piling wood up  [[crossed out]] today [[/crossed out]] yesterday  against our remonstrances. I spent the forenoon writing to Lucy, to Mrs. Grey from whom I had a letter a few days ago, to Mrs. Col Sanford and to Perry sending fifteen dollars as the first assessment on six shares of Art Union stock. It has been a forlorn, homesick day and a thousand troubles and apprehensions have tormented me. Downing and I took a ride out along the Sawkill road and around by the Glasco bridge and home by Glen Erie. I enjoyed it when I could cease troubling about expenses. I try to hide my worries from Downing but tonight I am heartsick. Maurice is drinking again and all that frightful business is to be gone through with again. He went off this morning and has not returned. I have not the courage to face this trial and I fear its effect on my poor mother. Downing and I have been talking about Booth and Edwina who are to sail for home on Saturday. They expect to come here and I would only be too glad to have them only I know it will worry my mother and I am afraid we could not make it pleasant for them here. I am distracted thinking of it. How can there be any place for my art in the midst of these worries and yet it is on that we all depend. I shall try to let time unravel the complications.

Monday 4. June. The West Shore Railroad began running passenger trains between Newburg and New York today. We cleaned my room today taking everything out of it and shaking the carpet. We found lots of Buffalo bugs. I painted all the cracks in the floor with spirits of turpentine before we relaid the carpet. My father is ill from working foolishly all day Saturday. He looked very feeble tonight when he came out of his room. Marian came up by the evening train. Maurice keeps away. There is no telling what condition he is in by this time. It has been a warm day.

Tuesday 5.  Downing, Sara, Josephine and I cleaned the parlor and two halls today and got them nearly in order again. My father is out and begins to feel