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the Freeman office.  Julia and Lily came down from High Falls.  We went to the Cemetery and laid him under the June Shadows of the trees this most beautiful June evening. I did not think I could feel so tenderly for him. When I read my words of only a few days ago I realize how death can make us forget and how it softens and subdues all the hardness of our natures. I cannot get him out of my mind. As he lay there silently in his coffin how he rebuked all my impatience and how I could remember only his sufferings, his temptations, of which I presume I have no conception, and how easy it was to forget and forgive all the anxiety and trouble he had caused us all. How far off all this seemed a few short days ago, how perplexing this awful problem which God has solved for us and for him in his mercy. I little thought to close this volume of my diary with so sad a story. Dear Gertrudes death closed the former one. I shall try to be more patient henceforth with the living. I have much to learn in that direction. One never can regret being kind and forbearing and forgiving. If I could have been more tender towards Maurice I might perhaps have had more influence with him, but his course of life drove us apart until we became almost as strangers. I think he had a respect for me, but I had but little for him. I think I was a kind of standing rebuke to him and we were not easy in each others society. I have no wish to vindicate myself.  I might have been more lenient even if he had not responded. That I should never have regretted while I do regret that I could not have been more patient; But he is with the Kind Father who pitieth all his children and he will give him the rest and peace which were denied him here.

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---------- Reopened for Editing 2023-03-22 16:16:16 changed mind to words in "When I read my words of only a few days ago"; and to but in "but his course of life drove us apart" but to not in "but I had but little for him"