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to contentment and happiness. I feel that I should take a dose of my own medicine.

Monday June 28" 1886. Oh dear! Night comes and I feel lonely and sad and half discouraged with the feeling that the days and the years slip and I accomplish so little, and yet learning of others about me struggling with ill health and fatal habits one surely in my condition ought to feel that there is much to live for. I took my father out for a drive up to Kingston after breakfast. It was a glorious morning with a brisk breeze from the North and I feel that I would like to go somewhere and ride all day, but he found it cool and we came back home, then I went down town and had my hair cut and again drove to Kingston to the County Clerks office where I looked up the description of the lot with the concrete house under the hill my father sold to Mrs. Ann Murphy. After dinner I went down there and measured the lot 49 ft on Holmes St and marked it on the map of our property. I picked some cherries and some strawberries and so this beautiful day has gone. My painting seems far, far away but with ease of mind I know all that desire will come back, if that time is not too far off. I think all these cool, delightful days of dear Gertrude. Never a day goes by that I do not think of her and yesterday a sudden pang went through me with a startling realization that she is utterly gone from earth. I had been thinking of her and with a sudden strong desire to go to her and be with her as for a brief moment it seemed I might til I realized how impossible it was. It almost seems as though for moments our souls go away somewhere into infinity and as suddenly return with their burdens of despair. I went down to John McEntees this evening where Sara had been to tea. I did not see Nannie who is not well but saw John who seemed worried and anxious. Fred and Annie Norton drove down from High Falls and called. Sadie Crosby returned from Europe Saturday and Sara went down to see her this afternoon. Girards wife and Charlie and Doughtie returned from Lums this morning where they have been a week or more. Girard went out for them on Saturday. Tom began to cut the hay today

Tuesday 29" Mary and I picked a quantity of currants today for jelly. The cool, charming days continue. I received a letter from Mrs. Steele today in answer of mine written in March. It informed me of the death of her sister Mrs Angel neé Miss Livingston on the 7 of March at San Luis Obispo California. It had been expected as she has had some mental disease for three years. She was a beautiful woman. The last time I saw her was many years ago in Fifth Avenue. We passed each other and each turned and looked back after passing and recognized each other and bowed our recognition. I shall always regret that I did not stop and speak with her. These sisters seem to have been very devoted to each other. After the death of her first husband Peter R. Livingston and after years of widowhood she married Mr. Angel who had loved her from her girlhood and Mrs. Steele says her marriage was a happy one in all respects. I remember some one saying of her during her widowhood that she was sure she would never marry again unless her heart were really engaged. It takes me back to my young days to read this letter from a lady I sincerely admired and who knew me in my early life. - Sara and I attended the Commencement exercise of Ulster Academy at Liscomb Opera House this evening. The place was crowded and a most gratifying interest shown in the Institution. A class of eight graduated. 

Wednesday 30" June has gone and we have had no hot weather. The wind has been from the North today and the same agreeable temperature 

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