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view after which we came to the house for a while. When we came away we came with them in the carriage and called on Mrs. Hess who could not see us and then upon Mrs. Fitch whom we did see. Here we left them and we walked out to Clearwaters where we saw Mrs. C and a Mrs. McKay? the little "Blanche" who used to come here with the Frelighs. From there we walked home arriving just in time for tea. Jimmy staid here while we were gone as the servant went out also. He is ill with a sort of fever and ague which attacks him every other day. Today was his well day.

Sunday June 23" 1889. It has been exceptionally cool - more like late September than June, and this forenoon the sunshine was cold and watery, but a clear, still and brilliant air this afternoon. I have made the most of the day and have finished the diary and letters of Madame D'Arblay in the reading of which I had great entertainment. She saw great sadness in her last years as necessarily almost every one does who survives friends and associates. I have written to no one today as is my usual custom. I do not feel cheerful or happy and so I think I had better not write to any one. I seem to be waiting for some indefinable happiness or satisfaction and when I ask myself what it is I cannot tell. I am unhappy that my time is passing in absolute indifference, if I might not more justly say, repugnance to my art. If I were only at work on a picture which interested and absorbed me how much happier I should be. I hope I have not finally bidden farewell to the days in which I delighted in my work.

Monday 24" The sun has hovered in a sort of cold mist dispensing all day a weak sunshine. This morning it was so cold I put on my winter clothes. The Mercury at breakfast time marked 48°. I had a note from Henry Abbey telling me he had ordered a head stone for John Van Derlyns grave and sent me the inscription he proposed to put on it. I called to see him but he held the inscription, which I did not entirely like, in abeyance until I could think it over. I worked in the garden and got rid of the day as I do each day now, with a sad feeling as of time wasted now when I have so little left. We went up to Mr. & Mrs Clarkes to spend the evening, invited to meet Hiram Romeyn his wife and her sister Miss Pillsbury. There were there Mr & Mrs John Forsyth, Mr & Mrs. Fitch, Mr & Mrs Clearwater, Mr & Mrs. Searing, Mr Osterhoudt, [[?]] old Mrs. Adams and the Romeyns. We walked home and got here about midnight. I picked today the first cucumbers and the first Antwerps.
[[left margin]] First cucumbers & Antwerps [[/left margin]]

Tuesday 25" Another day of smothered sunshine, cool but with no stimulating character of atmosphere. I spent most of the day in my studio in the afternoon painting on a little autumn picture. A lady called at the house who wanted to hire a furnished house. She knew of me and came reluctantly. This house was too large. Sara told her we would like to sell and had thought of renting it with a hope that it might help to sell it. She inquired our price for it and thought it a beautiful place. It began to rain a little toward evening. I went down to see DeGarmo about the hay which has been cut since Friday. Said it was his fault it was not drawn in. Had forgotten to tell the men - would take it even if it was spoiled. Now it will get wet. My farming is done at a great disadvantage with no horse to do any thing. Mrs. Van Slyke and her daughter called and Sara showed them the house.