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illness, the news dazed me somewhat.  She has been the [[red vertical line in left margin]] best of mothers for me and I feel that something in my life has been torn away.  I feel less interested in anything than before.  Went home directly and all night my thoughts turned to that good old mother of mine which now also has passed away.  I was under hopes to see her once more on my return over Europe.
June 4. Rain all day.  Conference here between Drs. Peter, Waldberger, and Mr. Paulus in relation to experiments in Brooklyn.  Discussed latest results and new estimates.  Charge 7 hours.  They left at 5:20 P.M.
June 5.  For the last weeks orders have been [[red underline]] disquietingly low [[/red underline]]
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and [[red underline]] conditions are not very encouraging. [[/red underline]]
A few days ago I got [[red underline]] disappointing news of tests of new impregnating material [[/red underline]] in Perth Amboy and therefore I was prepared somewhat to hear the later unsatisfactory reports of Pittsfield about the later tests with coils.  So we shall have to take up all these matters over again.  Since Tuesday we are again at work trying to solve this problem from another standpoint and I put both Laurence and Dr. Hamlin at it.  We shall have to do some rush work before I leave for Japan.  I believe this long voyage in entirely new conditions may have some beneficial influence on me.  I have become [[red underline]] very much indifferent to almost everything [[/red underline]] and I am frightened at a [[red underline]] general sadness and irritability [[/red underline]] which since
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