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3 cursing myself, cursing the fence of pain. Pain is not easy : reduces one to tooth-aches which may or may not be real but which are real enough to make one sleep, or wake, or decide that death is easy. It is dreadful to be so violently dispersed. To dare hope for nothing, And yet dare to hope : To know that hoping and not hoping are both criminal endeavors, and, yet, to play one's cards. If I could tell you anything about myself : if I knew something useful - : if I could ride, master, the storm of the unknown me,