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[[boxed date]] 1862 June 13th Fri [[/boxed date]] I then took the opportunity of telling the Steward & also Fluker [[underlined]] then & there [[/underlined]] that this double dealing would not answer - & then for their to add [[underlined]] lying [[/underlined]] to their improper, untrustworthy conduct it was more than I could do to keep quiet. I proceeded to [[strikethrough]] to tell [[/strikethrough]] call the Steward's attention to another matter by saying this, 'Steward, I have another word to say to you about that Bread wh. you handed me soon after my return from sledge trip up Bay of Frobisher. You told me that was the identical bread as you gave me to understand that [[strikethrough]] Capt. B [[/strikethrough]] said bread was the same Capt B had left word for you (Steward) to give to me. Now I knew then, & know now that Capt. B. [[strikethrough]] never [[strikethrough]] never intended you & Fluker to have good, whole & wholesome bread leaving only soggy, musty dirty badly broken, damaged bread for me. I know Capt B. too well to think for a moment that he would thus treat me. It does not correspond to his former & his general conduct toward me. The Steward here became very much in rage - [[strikethrough]] He said [[/strikethrough]] I proceeded: 'Steward you told me (on my mentioning to you short time after your delivery of [[strikethrough]] [[? ? ? bread ]] that it was very bad [[strikethrough]] bread [[) that it [[underlined]] was the very best you could do [[/underlined]] - that there was none other & besides it was what Capt. B. left for me. Now Steward what do you think my thoughts have been after such remarks to have you [[strikethrough]] sit [[/strikethrough]] & Fluker sit down at our meals with whole cakes of good bread while I have been obliged to partake of such inedible "stuff" as you handed to me as my portion. I [[strikethrough]] finished [[/strikethrough]] continued by saying: 'Capt. B. never meant that I should have such bread as you passed to me as my portion from my sledge trip up Bay of Frobisher. Here Steward [[strikethrough]] in a [[/strikethrough]] in high temper as if to show his good heart toward me at the time he gave me that bread said Capt B. left word for him (Steward) to give me but 15 day's bread (15 cakes) & he Steward had given me twice that amount! I concluded by the decisive expression that you (Steward) done [[underlined[[ wrong [[/underlined]] in not complying with the instructions of Capt B. Here I will add a word: When Steward gave me the bread he said that Capt. B. left [[strikethrough]] so it [['strikethrough]] the same for me wh. was 30 day's bread & now says Capt. B. said it was only 15 day's bread (15 discs), by the 4 lbs. On my making the remark that you Steward have done wrong in giving me double the amt. of Bread left for me by Capt. B. he went out of the Cabin highly excited in temper, talking vehemently as he went up the companion way. Fluker remained to express his deep sorrow at the most he had been playing or acting - he gave [[end page]] [[start page]] 1862 June 13 Fri [[/boxed date]] me to understand that he had been led into it by the Steward. He humbly asked my forgiveness & assured me that I never should have occasion to have the like faults to find in him. I acknowledged he had done wrong very wrong in telling me the lie wh. he did - said it was the first act of [[underlined]] double dealing [[/underlined]] (relative to the pork) since leaving the States. How different the spirit of the Steward! Obstinate & progressive in his downward course. And yet he has a thorn which is piercing him. He now knows that his trustworthiness has been discovered &will be reported to the proper party as in duty I am bound to do it. [[about 1/5th of the page left blank]] Saturday, June 14th 1862 AM N.E. Fresh - dark thick clouds less than freezing point M N.E. Light - cloudy - melting heat PM. - [[left blank]] I did think some of starting on my trip at 12 Midnight - I awoke & went on deck one o'clock AM of this day. Finding the weather threatening concluded to await till six in the morning. At V called p Fluker, who had kindly offered the evening before to do any thing to assist me in my preparations for my trip. He responded - built up a fire for our breakfast wh. he had ready in good time. In the mean time I got my things loaded upon the sledge & dogs in harness attached thereto. Fluker done a noble act - he came to me as I was nearly in rediness to start, thanking me for so frankly forgiving him the bad deed he was guilty of (but now sincerely sorry for) yesterday. On the moment of departing I spoke to the Steward who was sitting in his "bunk" asking if he had any message to send to Capt. B.? He responded that he had none. At hVI-m30 AM (XI-30 Cho) I started, the dogs following former sledge tracks & I following my new Bob-sled. As I am no adept at driving dogs did not ^[[for some time]] make much progress toward Rescue Harbor wh. was my course at 1st the dogs every now & then reversing themselves & sledge so completely that the vessel was ahead quite as often & as long as "Rescue Harbor". However a [[strikethrough]] could [[/strikethrough]] pitch-pine club, 2 feet long proved its efficiency on administering it properly on certain or uncertain parts of dog [[strikethrough]] flsh [[/strikethrough]] flesh After a while dogs became used to my ineptness of dog driving & finally done finely. [[end page]]
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See page 545 in Hall's book.
