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[[strikethrough]] SATURDAY, MARCH 28, 1936 [[/strikethrough]]
88th Day   278 Days to come

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any thoughts of marrying him. Four years ago we were romantically in love & since then I have considered him a great friend & no more, & his conciet & pride can't realize that I will never be in love with him again. I wonder if Kenneth will lose his confidence & charm the way Kim & John have after years? Kim will go far I'm sure but he has more energy than Kenneth, & [[strikethrough]] more [[/strikethrough]] a quicker & more intellectual mind. Kenneth's humor is very young & silly sometimes, & he can appear like a stolid  [[strikethrough]] clas [[/strikethrough]] "white man" to an embarassing degree, [[strikethrough]] at times [[/strikethrough]], & yet [[strikethrough]] that is [[/strikethrough]] the former is because he is so young, & the latter is because he is fundamentally fine & sound & right - so these are few & small faults to find considering they are [[strikethrough]] the [[/strikethrough]] literally the only ones I can find. I feel better now that I've poured them out. We had a lovely weekend of each other in Cambridge, what with Ruth Draper, & the 

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because she is too lonely & unhappy  & lost to be able to sit down in old age. If only her Italian beau had not died four years ago - because marriage would be her only saviour now, & she [[strikethrough]] ca [[/strikethrough]] has to be hectic every minute now in order not to think of him, with the result that she is like [[strikethrough]] someone [[/strikethrough]] her ridiculous American tourist in her monologue without realizing it - telling us to see Keats' manuscript because if we feel the way she does about him it will be one of the greatest experiences of a lifetime. Well we did see it, & it left us cold - but that Fitzwilliam museum is [[strikethrough]] quite [[/strikethrough]] full of marvelous drawings - by Rembrandt & Franz Hals [[strikethrough]] (the most famous dutchman whose name I've forgotten for the moment) [[/strikethrough]] & Rubens - the latter of which surprised & pleased me most. It is full of bad paintings by good artists on the whole, [[strikethrough]] & also of Italian pi [[/strikethrough]] but things were well presented in that they had appropriate furniture placed with each period of paintings. Gerry Gerrard spent that day with us - & was charming as ever - but all mixed up inside emotionally

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