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[[strikethrough]] TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 3, 1936 [[/strikethrough]] 308th Day Election Day 58 Days to come about it later - but he is so imaginative & loving & full of charm for an Englishman that I am amazed. It is interesting to see how proud his father is above all of his courage & ability to [[strikethrough]] be [[/strikethrough]] "stand up & take it" like a true Englishman. Lytton writes it excellently but when he describes [[strikethrough]] such things as [[/strikethrough]] him thus - "he never acquired the reticence so common in schoolboys, & expressed with the utmost ease everything which he felt" it makes me [[strikethrough]] translate it [[/strikethrough]] realize that part of the charm there is a sensitive expression which describes schoolboy shyness - & that in a few years when psychology is common knowledge - just such a charming senstence [[sentience]] will have to be written [[strikethrough]] as such [[/strikethrough]] thus "He was never a skizoid like his fellow schoolmates, but a clearly defined manic depressive - the typical extrovert. Well - what more mystery or charm will there be left in [[strikethrough]] writing [[/strikethrough]] biographies? Even [[strikethrough]] ancient [[/strikethrough]] old fashioned descriptions of illnesses & bodily symptoms once had a charm & delicacy that medical knowledge exploded. In between whistles I overhear Mrs H saying "only 30? Why I call that a mere sucking Babe" - or "She really has the utmost affection & admiration for that dreadful old skate", or "the more I [[strikethrough]] see [[/strikethrough]] think about it the more I don't like yellow Lace!" and quarrelling [[strikethrough]] between [[/strikethrough]] with my nurse - who doesn't understand Mrs H & her aristocracy - & tries in vain to put her in her place by saying "when you're my patient I certainly will [[strikethrough]] know [[/strikethrough]] tell you what to eat & what not to etc. This was [[strikethrough]] as [[/strikethrough]] by way of scolding Mrs H for having so scolded the butcher for bringing [[strikethrough]] the wrong [[/strikethrough]] lousy meat [[strikethrough]] (it looked [[/strikethrough]] [[strikethrough]] WEDNESDAY, NOVEMBER 4, 1936 [[/strikethrough]] 308th Day 57 Days to come "(it should have been boned & rolled & instead it looked as if your baby had done it up.") Mrs H's retort to the nurse was that if she was being fed meat free in someone else's house, she would certainly not complain if the housekeeper who paid the bills did all her own fighting to provide the best food!" God, I grinned through the bedroom door - but it went right over the nurse's head without ruffling a hair! This nurse seems to think I try to impress her so she reacts just the way I do from Jay - distrustfully, & with pride hurt at the idea of someone younger "telling her." But with Jay I at least admit I am in awe, & I continue to listen for better or for worse. I feel most unhappy today - with no escape possible - & Mrs H & the nurse getting on my nerves - & mum ungetattable. I purposely didn't tel. her when I was sick because she'd have worried, but now I long to have her take me home. Every night I dream about Jay - & last night when I was only dozing I had such a rich moment of [[strikethrough]] rich [[/strikethrough]] ideas & visions that [[strikethrough]] I awoke [[/strikethrough]] it woke me up. I thought of a stone [[strikethrough]] carved into Mowgli and all his brothers on the council rock [[/strikethrough]] shaped like the "Jungle
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Antony Bulwer-Lytton
