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becoming part of the society (albeit of fairly insecure individuals) here is preparing itself in a most difficult school for independence. This teaching once begun must come to an end here, it seems, and these forces overcome here before moving out & on. The more people I talk with the firmer that conviction becomes. This is probably not an ideal path, this extreme individualism, egocentricity, etc., but it is taken. Harvard's meshes are inescapable. Of course I can see no end now, but to complete my adjustment. This is all beside the point, just an outburst. There isn't much else to say.

Today I begin studying for Generals. I shall have to run out to Grandma once during the week to get some course notes. I have forgotten Bill in Alf and Herby; with Herby last night it was very easy, tho' I had the old feeling of loving [[strikethrough]] or not [[/strikethrough]] him somewhat or not responding quickly enough [[strikethrough]] somewhat [[/strikethrough]]. Now I have at last gotten to the state of not fearing that, not feeling so infinitely inferior, concentrating upon sympathy & firmness; [[strikethrough]] so that [[/strikethrough]] it is really a very rewarding thing to be [[strikethrough]] so [[/strikethrough]] recognized by a Hist-Lit dept man, to be known throughout the department as a good (not excellent) student & honest kind person. That will help so much in jobbing & social life. I am so glad to be in this dept, [[strikethrough]] in here [[/strikethrough]] the only one small enough to permit this happy mingling. I shall work so hard now.

Truly I am very very sorry. [[strikethrough]] about us [[/strikethrough]]

Love,
Doris